An ocean away

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY ZACHARY..!!

annukka65 — Mon, 09 Mar 2009 23:23:41 +0000

My baby is getting older.. *L*.. Oh sweet angel.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY darling.. *squeezing you tight, kissing you romantically*. I hope you get the best of days and that you feel my love surrounding you more than ever today. I’m with you.. every second. I love you so much.. I miss you.

Sometimes there is some kind of inspirational drought in my head. I’m usually a somewhat creative person but there are times when the words just kind of get stuck inside my head and they won’t come out no matter how badly I want them to. They’re like a 4-year old in a candy store.. not getting what he wants, laying flat on the floor and screaming from the top of his lungs.. You get the picture..?

So.. when the inspiration is low.. or closer to nothing, it’s good to find that others have done the thinking for you. There are a million different kinds of lists and quizzes on the net.. that you can fill with your own answers, personalize and publish. I found one.. and here goes..

Six things I’ve done today:
Took a shower
Ate breakfast
Drove to work
Hunted my new boss
Watched Project Runway
Delivered some invitations and ads to Salon AngelHair

Five favourite things, without order of priority:
My books
The framed wedding picture of my Mummi and Grandpa from 1937
My computer
Our popcorn machine
My silverheart in a long silver chain

Four persons I admire:
Barack Obama
Zachary
My mother
Sir Anthony Hopkins

Three choices:
Red or Blue: Blue because of the sky and the ocean and the heart of Finland.
Potatoechips or Chocolate: Chocolate if I’m forced to chose.
Summer or Winter: Neither, but I love spring and autumn.

Two things I want to do before I die:
See my family united
Travel to Japan and see my Nanni there

One thing I regret:
That I didn’t divorce much sooner

Some pictures..

annukka65 — Tue, 03 Mar 2009 22:14:18 +0000

… from the past weekend. Sanna and I had a great time this past weekend. We were downtown Stockholm both Friday (I took a day off from work) and Saturday. Sunday was mostly about chillin’.. Now it’s back to business again and it’s stressful at work. I got a new boss since last week.. but the old one is still there and they’re both keeping me very, very busy. Feels like I’m working night and day.. but it’s just for now. It’ll ease eventually. Can’t wait for my boys to get home.. 1,5 weeks to go.. VRASZ..!

My brother Niko had his b-day on March 1st.. and sweet Uncle Mike had his b-day yesterday.. and we all forgot. HAPPY BIRTHDAY Niko and Uncle Mike.. I hope you both had great birthdays. I’m so sorry I forgot..

Alright.. here are some pics from the past weekend.. Click on the pics to see a larger image if you want..

First there’s the Wok Café we both love.. they have the best Lucky Mee dish in the world and Lin and Don (sister and brother) who owns the place are amazingly sweet people. Then we see me just sitting and.. well.. after the first bookstore. Then some books we got on the sale.. And then we found this wonderful place called Grace Tea House.. which was like stepping into a little piece of China. That was amazing. First pic is of the lemon-passionfruitcake and the tea I had.. and pic after that is from their interior. So cool. Then we have the Beauty.. Nanni.. After that some flowers we got at the market square and then last but not least.. Sanna got her very first piercing on her eyebrow. The guy who pierced her was awesome and funny.. and he didn’t mind posing either.. *s*

An update and a game with letters and words

annukka65 — Tue, 24 Feb 2009 23:41:33 +0000

It’s been a while again.. Seems like time flies and I’m always stressed out.. and yet, at the same time.. time sometimes seems to stand still. I miss my boys so much it’s insane.. and now we’re two weeks and a few days from being together. At last. Finally. Wow. I’m still worried sick about both Zachary and Vincent and their health. Very worried.. I know my Rickyman is doing good and feeling good.. so that’s a huge relief.

This week my beautiful Sanna has off from school.. it’s her February break. Unfortunatelly I have one of the most stressful weeks ever at work.. and that sucks big time. We are still going to do some stuff together later this week. We’re planning on going downtown and doing something together.. we will also visit some bookstores this week. The Huge Booksale of the year started yesterday. Best time of the year.. shopping-wise.. if you ask me. I LOVE books.. and I LOVE my boys.. my family.. Speaking of family.. many of you has gotten an account in Facebook.. which is great and funny. May I remind you though.. that a few of you still has a blog here too.. *coughing a little discrete*

And now.. a kind of funny thing with letters and words.. Found it online..

My name is: Annukka

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A four letter word: Also
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Girls name: Alicia
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Boys name: Alexander
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Profession: Ambulance driver
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Colour: Amber
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Piece of clothing: Anorak
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Food: Anjovis-sandwich
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Thing in the bathroom: Aceton
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Place/City: Annawan
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Reason to be late: Alcohol poisoning
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Something you scream: Aaaooch..!
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Movie: Australia
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Something you drink: Aqua
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Band: ABBA (of course..!)
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Animal: Ape
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Street name: Alholmstreet
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Car: Audi
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Song: Alejate
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Activity with more than one participant: Armwrestling

Rules:  Every answer has to start with the first letter in your first name.
All answers has to be real, not made up. You can't have the same
answers as someone else you either get the list from or that takes it
from your blog. Never same answer twice, and not your name as an
answer.

4 weeks to go..

annukka65 — Fri, 13 Feb 2009 23:25:40 +0000

Today is exactly one month until my boys will be home. 4 weeks.. 28 days. Wow.. It’s beginning to feel a bit more real now and time passes by pretty fast. 28 days.. that’s nothing. I can’t wait to take them in my arms and kiss them until they get sick of me.. *s*.

Today both Sanna and I were at the care centre to have blood drawn from us.. The doc has ordered a number of tests for our appointments later this month. I’m glad we’re finally on track with that and I have a feeling that things will turn out okey eventually. I also saw my diabetes doc and that was positive.. which was a pleasant surprise for me. I hadn’t expected it to be as good as it turned out to be. I still have a long way to go.. but at least I’m on my way. It’s taking time.. but it’s going in the right direction, which I’m very grateful for. Now I have to keep it up and remind myself to eat something every 3,5-4 hours.. like a baby.. and I’ll be good. The medicine seems to be working also. Phew.. I’m not out of the woods yet.. but I’m on the right path.

Tomorrow morning we’ll be driving to Norrköping to see mom and the brothers.. and nephews of course. We are going to celebrate Sanna’s and Tommy’s b-days together. We’re going to stay one night so we’ll be back on Sunday afternoon sometime. Kirre will stay at home.. I have a real hard time leaving him like that even though I know he’ll be doing great. He’ll have food and water and we’ll be back home the next day. I know, I know.. but I still feel bad.. We’ll hurry back on Sunday though.

And tomorrow is Valentine’s Day. HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY everyone..! Especially my own Valentine.. my beautiful man.. my Zachary. And my little Valentine’s.. Ricky and Vincent.. and my Nanni-Valentine.. my wonderful daughter. You are all my hearts and you totally own it.. along with my soul. My life is you.. all of you and I love you so much more than I can ever make you understand. I am so blessed to have you in my life. Thank you for chosing me to be your mother and your partner in life.

Tomorrow is also 14 years since my dad passed away. So.. dad.. watch the candles we’ll light for you and know that you are still with us in so many ways. Your granddaughter and I miss you..

And Sanna, Vincent, Ricky.. my babies.. everything will be alright. Sanna, sweet baby girl.. we’re getting help now.. medically and emotionally. Vincent.. Monday we find out more and we’ll take it from there. Ricky.. relax this weekend.. and keep healing baby boy. I want you to know that I am here for you always. In every way. Always and forever… for ever. That goes for you too Zachary.. I love you so much.. all 4 of you. My family.

Happy Birthday Nanni Ninja Boo Boo

annukka65 — Tue, 10 Feb 2009 17:23:31 +0000

Today is a very, very special day.. Today is Sanna’s 18th birthday. I can’t believe how fast time passes. It sounds like a kliché to say.. but it’s true. I remember in detail how you kicked me in some well chose place so that my water broke.. you were almost 2 months premature. I was in labor for almost 2 days.. before you were born with an emergency c-section on a Sunday.. Sunday February 10th 1991. The day my life changed forever and all for the better.

I hope today has been a good day for you my baby girl. You’re not a baby anymore.. but to me you always will be in some senses.. and I know that annoys you sometimes, but that’s just how it is. You hold a huge piece of my heart and I am so thankful, grateful every day to have you. You are such an amazing young woman.. You are a wonderful sister, friend, cousin, niece, grandchild… and you are the most fantastic daughter anyone could ever ask for. You are also a role model for many others. You’ve gone through so much in life already.. many things I wish I could have saved you from. But life chose different. You are so much stronger than what you know. You are loyal, compassionate and so loving.. you have a golden heart and so much empathy. And then you’re a bit crazy also.. *s*.. Like your daddy. You’re good crazy though.. fun crazy.

I am so overwhelmed from the love I feel for you Sanna.. I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for chosing me to be your mother.. and for teaching me so much about life. You help me see things in different ways through your eyes.. through your mind, your thoughts, your dreams. You help me. You teach me. I admire you so much every day. You are pure beauty to me and to so many others. You are so loved Sanna. I feel so truly blessed to have you.. Thank you so much for being mine.

Happy Birthday my beautiful Nanni

Hey Calebi..!!

annukka65 — Mon, 09 Feb 2009 20:55:25 +0000

HAPPY BIRTHDAY my wonderful brother Calebi.. *squeezing you so tight, kissing your both cheeks*.. Feeling older..? Wiser..? Naah.. didn’t think so.. *L*. I hope you’re having the best of days. I wish I was there to celebrate with you. I’m sorry we couldn’t talk today.. but we’ll talk soon. I love you so much and I’m so proud of you Cal..! You rock.

What else is cooking..? Work..! That’s almost all there is for now. Work and work and then some more work. Almost no play at all. I’m getting sick of it to be honest. And last week on Tuesday our Sanna fell and hurt herself.. Wednesday we were at the ER just about all day. Nothing broken but most likely stretched out ligaments and some heavy bruising. Saturday she came with me to work. I have some weekend and some nightshifts to do this week and next. That sucks.. but it has to be done. I’m taking pics of everyone for new ID’s.. and I have about 100 more to take pics of. Saturday Sanna was with me and we had her iPod docking station with us with some cool music.. She wanted to take the pics, so she did.. which was cool. This weekend went by way too fast much because of us being at work all Saturday. At least I got to be with the most beautiful and amazing girl in the world.. Sanna.

I miss my boys so much. I know the past days has been more rough than usual and I wish we were together. I love you so much.. and in less than 5 weeks.. it’ll be VRASZ party for sure. I can’t wait to get you home. You are always with me.. in everything I feel, dream, say, think, do..

Tomorrow is a very special day.. a wonderful day.. I will write more about that sometime tomorrow..

Time flies..

annukka65 — Sun, 01 Feb 2009 22:47:06 +0000

It’s been a week since I updated this.. (which still is much more often than some others.. *wink, wink* ). But when I look at what I last wrote.. it seems like yesterday. This week has been an eventful one in some ways. I’ll try to give you an update..

Monday.. work.
Tuesday.. work.
Wednesday.. Funeral.
Thursday.. work.
Friday.. work.

So it’s been a lot of work. Stressful.. and not much sleep at nights. Not so good. Wednesday I was on Maria’s funeral.. I was saying my last farewell’s to her and it was so sad. It was the first catholic funeral mass I’ve ever been to. It was really ritual, ceremonial.. a lot of stand up, sit down, stand up, sit down.. and reading from the Holy Bible. Felt a bit more strict than funerals I’ve been to before. It was beautiful though.. and it warmed my heart to see her beloved son Fernando be gathered with so much love, so many friends. He stands alone in the world now.. all of his family, aunts and uncles are far far away. But he has friends here.. that’s good. He said he might take a trip to his uncles in Portugal this summer. He should.. I hope he will. I miss Maria so much.. it also felt good for me to be able to be among her other friends, of which some are my friends too.. from work. We were able to mourn and say goodbye together.. share the grief, kind of. Maria.. my wonderful friend. Thank you for what you were, what we had, all that you gave of yourself. Life will never be the same again.. but I will carry you with me in my heart always and forever. I miss you so much.

Saturday morning.. my youngest brother Jens and his family came to visit. From the second they arrived.. I was 100% The Auntie. The moment Oliver and Dexter hugged and kissed me.. my heart melted and I was lost in those two munchkins. We got some valuable help with getting some IKEA shelves put together.. we bought them a few months ago and they’ve been in our storage room. They were also here to get Sanna’s old desk for Oliver.. a dresser we don’t want anymore.. and Sanna’s baby crib.. that I’ve saved for some reason. Jens and Jennie are having their third baby at the end of April.. so it comes in handy now.

Sunday.. today. We went to IKEA to get some more stuff.. *s*.. The munchkins were able to be in the IKEA play area for an hour, which was their heaven… My heaven is all of IKEA . Jens and his family took off in the afternoon.. and Sanna, Kirre and I took a good and well deserved nap. Sanna has been doing some homework.. and we have been talking with Uncle Mike now.. which was great..! He’s such a great guy. We are still talking with my Zacky.. Sanna’s daddy.. but I know he’s dying to go downstairs with the guys to watch the Superbowl.. *s*.. Our house is filled with Ianotti guys… nachos and dip… a few beers I believe.. and some betting I’m sure. My beautiful son Ricky is now feeling better after his eye infection, thank God.. but my beautiful Vincent.. is having it bad still. Feel better soon precious..

So that about sums it up.. It’s been busy but boring this past week.. or most of it. The funeral was touching.. it was hard.. but it was sort of a closure too, which was necessary at this point I believe. Now we have a new month.. new possibilities..

Lifetime achievement..!

annukka65 — Sun, 25 Jan 2009 00:55:48 +0000

Alright.. Historical events has been made since I last blogged. Now.. this is huge. This made me cry. TomTom, Princess Dion and Brody will understand what I’m talking about. And Zacky.. because I make him.. *L*. Listen carefully people. I saw this.. I started to shake, I got the shivers.. I cried.. and I was so happy I didn’t know what to do with myself. This is huge y’all. Brace yourselves.. and check THIS out.. What can I say..? You all need to comment this. I am serious.

King Kirre have been taking it easy since his adventure up in the pine tree. He caught a cold too.. he’s been sneezing a bit and resting a bit more than usual. Poor baby. He’s so amazingly wonderful. He’s really all love and joy. So he’s been outside a couple more times since then.. but just to check out the backyard basically and then he wants to come in again. Works with me..

Been taking it easy today. Last week was kind of rowdy and pretty stressful with work. We meant to have breakfast at McDonald’s and then go to IKEA today, but we decided to stay home and take it easy. I got up early.. took a look through the window.. saw the snowstorm and crawled back into bed. I had some catching up to do with sleep also and it was great to sleep late and have a slow breakfast at home. IKEA will be there tomorrow too.. so we’re going tomorrow morning instead.

I called my beautiful baby sister today. She’s crazy.. but I love her to death and beyond. Christina, I had a wonderful time with you and I hope we can talk again soon. You reenergize me. And tonight.. we’ve been online with my amazing son Vincent and my gorgeous Zacky. Our Rickyman is hanging with his best friend Cody today and sleeping over at his house. Tomorrow is Rickyman-time.. I miss my boys so much and I can’t wait for these 7 weeks to pass QUICKLY. I need to have them here already.

All work and no play

annukka65 — Thu, 22 Jan 2009 21:43:31 +0000

It’s been a lot of work the past days.. All work and no play. That’s how life is sometimes. I’m working against deadlines and as much as I love my work.. it’s draining me every once in a while. I’m nurturing a hope that it’ll get better.. and I’m sure it will be. But until then.. it’s just to zip it and keep working.

Kirre was outside today… for about 20 minutes. Then he felt it was enough.. and he didn’t even want to go outside later even though we opened the door to him. He’s been cuddling and purring here with us all day instead.. God, I love that cat..

I’m looking forward to this weekend though. I won’t be working that much and it’ll be mostly about relaxing.. and being close with Sanna and Kirre. I need to reenergize myself in some way and that’s the best way I can think of here and now. I can’t wait until I have my whole family here.. and we can hang out together.. just be happy and have fun. No more missing. Next week will be about a lot of work again.. so this weekend needs to be relaxing. Next week we also have a funeral to go to.. Maria’s funeral on Wednesday. Sanna and I were talking about going downtown afterwards.. just hanging out.. maybe catching a movie or something. We’ll see in what shape we’re in.

But back to work.. First I’ll talk with my beautiful man and my amazing brother JoeJoe. Last night we talked with my precious brother TomTom and tomorrow we talk with his future wife.. Princess Dion. I love my family.. I’m crazy in love with my beautiful, wonderful family. And.. Saturday I’m going to call my baby sister.. That’ll reenergize me for sure..

Look at this..

annukka65 — Wed, 21 Jan 2009 00:03:29 +0000

The Return of The King has taken place here. Our big boy came back home. I have no idea how he managed to get down from the tree.. he was at least 30-40 feet up in that pine tree. But down he came and he came home. Our precious Kirre. As soon as he stepped inside the door, Sanna picked him up and held him tight.. and she cried out of relief.. I held them both and cried too. What a scare he gave us. He’s home now though.. he’s safe.. and he’s grounded..! At least for a day or two. I actually don’t believe he’d want to go out again anytime soon. (cute picture taken by cute Sanna)

We’ve been talking with my beautiful man and my wonderful brother JoeJoe tonight. We had a great time like we always do. We’re lifting each others spirits and we tend to laugh a lot.. even though we can get real serious and deep out stuff too. Thank you Sanna, Zachary and JoeJoe for a great time tonight..! I also felt that some things are going to get a lot better from now on and some worries can be eliminated by better communication. Why worry when we can talk about it..?!

I love and adore and miss my boys to a point where it’s almost ridiculous. Seven more weeks to go.. Stay safe.. I can’t wait..